Today’s prompt:

• The negativity that gets the better of me is…
• The feelings I’d rather not explore are…
• If I exaggerated those feelings, made them really big, then…
• I’m afraid to explore my feelings about…

The negativity that gets the better of me is self-criticism. I am my biggest critic and  I know it. In every aspect of my life, I try to push myself beyond my limits to accomplish things I never thought possible. I push my self out of the comfort zone in hopes of discovering something new about myself. Many times, I may be over critical and allow the failures to overpower the successes.

The feelings I’d rather not explore are those attached to negative past experience. This could be people I’ve lost literally and figuratively, broken relationships, and painful events. When remembering an instance from the past, it’s hard not to dwell on memories you’d wish to forget. Without trying, it’s always these memories that seem to linger and overtake the present moment. I’d rather see these experiences objectively and take what I can from them rather than digging through why I feel a certain way towards them.

If I exaggerated those feelings, made them really big, then quite honestly I’d be a really sad person. I’d rather avoid those subjects all together and focus on the here and now. I’d rather not be the woman who turned into the pillar of salt because she couldn’t let go of her past. (Genesis 19:26)

I’m NOT afraid to explore my feelings about anything. I enjoy understanding why people think and feel the way that they do. It’s amazing to see a perspective from another person’s eyes. By understanding my own logic, I can empathize with others and their situations. Fear of knowing one’s self will only lead to self-doubt and confusion on self-identity. Knowing every aspect of myself will only make me stronger and more confident in who I am.